I feel similarly. The only reason I program anymore is because I'm being paid relatively well for sometimes 2-3 hours of work a day. My friends who are pharmacists cannot comprehend that I make more than them, while it seems I'm living carefree and have much more time than them.

However, when the app I created halts, the thousands of dollars will add up quickly, while hundreds of employees are on the clock and no product is moving.

I have many projects on paper that I think can have positive impact on hundreds of people but the drive isn't there anymore.

I'm hoping to ignore my emotions and try to just develop something, I think if it gained traction I might get that spark back but I will probably find reasons to be unhappy about it.

Now that I typed this, it seems like its a mix of pessimism, depression and my somewhat validated negative view of the current society.