It stemmed from seeing comments here about a book called 'The Body Keeps the Score' reading the book and subsequently self identifying as suffering from trauma.

So I sought out an EMDR qualified psychologist in the city and started seeing them. It's been just over a year now.

Benefits so far have included an increase in self esteem and of quality in my relationships with my partner and my child, a promotion at work(due to increase in ability to be present without zoning out due to anxiety) - along with increased social awareness.

Am basically now less inclined to withdraw and hide from life.

The mind melter is how absent I've been for basically my whole life - and not for lack of trying either. It would be terrifying - all those years - basically a lifetime lost, but I am so glad to have some semblance of a life now. I didn't think it was possible TBH.