I know the first line is sad. I am trying to find a healthier way to view the situation.

A lot of my best friends are women. Recently I went through a major accomplishment. I had five women friends text me to congratulate me.

I feel that I dress well, and I am a physically fit marathon-running, motorcycle-riding, outdoorsman. Social awkwardness yes but I think it comes across as being sincere.

This is my unhealthy mindset talking (perhaps) but it isn't necessarily low ego, it's just life, pop culture, etc does not align with the values I was taught as a child, growing up in a conservative religious home.