I'm not sure if the OP is the original author. It looks like the original author is only 14 years old. They may have picked up programming skills and possibly have higher IQ compared to their classmates or peers. It can often make it difficult to connect with others in the social circle. Programming was probably fun and intellectually challenging in the beginning but now the author might find it a boring. But with age, hopefully they'll understand that there are enough mysteries in the world to uncover and challenge their intellect. Good luck.