I’m going to miss you, but I am taking a sabbatical
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Godspeed, Jason. Be well and see you on the flip (in whatever way you deem fit).
On Twitch, taking a day off may mean losing hundreds of subscribers. Streamers are cautious about taking bathroom breaks since they can lose thousands of viewers during a short break. YouTube ruthlessly punishes creators that don't upload on a consistent schedule. I imagine TikTok and Instagram are similar.
My guess is that Kottke has been living under a similar stress for 24 years. That has got to wear a person down.
Older videos are naturally downranked because users want fresh content. The age of a post is a strong predictor of user interaction. However, it doesn't mean Youtube actively punishes less frequent creators. YouTube actually promotes a lot of old content (>1 year old) compared to other platforms. At the extreme, Instagram Stories are deleted after 24 hours forcing you to produce content daily.
[1] that is, something they do and make a success of rather than some totally original idea.
The only overlap is where your subscribers watch the video. This gives the algorithm an idea of the audience your video is applicable to so it can push it further than a video from a channel with no subscribers
Src [PDF]: https://static.googleusercontent.com/media/research.google.c...
If anything you should post as many videos as you can handle in terms of workload and quality. Don’t burn yourself out of course, but don’t hold back thinking an algorithm designed to show people videos wants less videos!
Yes I have thousands of subscribers and millions of hours watched.
I have tried to post as many vidoes as possible like I'm sure many have tried. 3 a day max works better.
In any case I’ll stop tubesplaining, sorry! Any knowledge I have is booksmarts-deep at best 2015 onwards, any recent experience is definitely going to be more informed
Oh wow 2015 is a long time ago already..
YT as a platform works for all kinds of producers , but as a content creator you are the in the space of high volume low quality content then yes publishing frequently is a must.
However if you are high quality low volume creator who is almost guaranteed tens of million views you could do only infrequently, however each video is going take a lot of time to produce.
(I'm sure it does, and I'd like to know more about the algorithm.)
YT like Search is heavily targeted for SEO, having access to the algorithm will just make it easier for exploitation , we will get even more low quality low effort content in our feeds than now. More good creators will leave the platform.
I would believe that what you describe is true for long-established YouTube personalities, and I can think of plenty myself, but I can think of pretty few that haven't been doing it for at least five years or so (with the exception of the woodworking space, where it seems like perhaps there's still some growth opportunities despite plenty of creators--my guess is it's because the ad revenue is way better there). I follow a lot of smaller essayists 'cause I like that sort of thing and have a friendly recommendation network to leverage; YouTube very rarely recommends me long-form content, in either Search or Suggested Videos, from somebody I've never seen before.
Perhaps it depends on what kind of content creator we are talking about. Is it the shock and awe / latest greatest / hype train type of content?
Here's a relevant TED talk I found to be inspiring: https://www.ted.com/talks/stefan_sagmeister_the_power_of_tim...
One thing I don't feel is that these sabbaticals have necessarily been some kind of radical life-altering experience. I pretty much just did the same stuff that I enjoyed doing anyway, but I did it entirely at my own pace, with zero pressure or stress. I'm not really seeking enlightment, I'm just seeking peacefulness.
As I am getting older, I am thinking that perhaps instead of doing my usual 1-2 years at a couple of different companies and then breaking, it might be nicer to have a consistent job that would allow me to break and come back. I have returned to two companies in my employment history - one after spending a year overseas, and another that I returned to part-time as a remote freelancer during COVID. Unfortunately I don't think many companies are inclined to offer this as a formal benefit, especially in countries where months-long parental leave isn't a thing. I suppose people who enjoy these kinds of sabbaticals and come back refreshed and hopefully more productive are still enough of a minority that it isn't seen as something that would be in a company's interest to promote.
After the last, I started a new job full time for about a year, after which I transitioned to working just Monday - Wednesday (8 hour days). I'm in year 4 of this schedule. For me, I think this works better than full time and occasional sabbaticals. I have not approached anything near burn out.
As someone who just started a sabbatical last month, one thing that’s on my mind is future sustainability. I don’t want to be back in a position where I have to do this for sake of sanity.
A mon-wed schedule sounds promising, but it definitely seems like the employer is #1 key.
Even if my now-former employer offered me that option, it would have never actually worked due to the culture there.
But... you may not be able to get your own with any tax benefits if your company offers something and you choose not to take it. That's my understanding anyway. And... health insurance is just totally hosed in the US, with regulations like that on the books.
Take employers out of the equation. Let everyone buy their own, and/or, institute some basic govt policy, and let people buy private on top.
If you're buying for a family, it can be prohibitively expensive. Even a few years back (2016/207), high deductible plans for some of my colleagues were north of $1500/month with $10k deductibles for 2 people in their 50s with an early 20s kid.
There's a sliding scale here. Few are wealthy enough that they don't need income forever. But many can save up enough to take a few weeks or a few months off. More like a long unpaid vacation.
You just need to be disciplined.
⸻ 1. I also put half of any “extra” income that comes my way and if I slide money that I don’t use into that fund as well.
My management really wanted me to do the sick leave thing. My therapist would have backed me up if I needed proof.
I chose not to take that offer because I didn’t want a timetable looming, and I wanted to be truly free from any pressure to return. The role was also very customer facing, which put me in a weird spot about what to tell the community.
I think I might have been more open to it if I hadn’t already been there for 8+ years and feeling the itch to do something new.
The door is still open, but I don’t have to walk through it.
I sometimes have to take a minute to reflect on how good we have it in this industry.
I hear you on the business burnout. That's the part I could see taking...a good while for myself.
I once went to my manager saying I was worried about burning out bc of pushing so hard on a project with a legal deadline. Asked him to consider/look into options for me to take a month off unpaid at the end of it.
He said he'd talk to leadership about it and get back to me. I got fired the next day.
I hope this post will inspire also me somehow.
But in the meantime - I hope you'll beat it fast.
I've also become a father, which is obviously a time-consuming and stressful endeavor.
Oh, and there's this pandemic going on, so I didn't get to see much of my Mom while she was dying, but I did feel like I saw some extra ugliness in society in general.
I'm not sure which of these (or other) factors have contributed more or less to my feeling this way. I've been starting to think about taking some time off, although I'm not sure how much I'll be able to swing. But if there were a clone of me out there, and I could press a button to approve a 6 month sabbatical for him, I'd definitely do it.
It's easy to look at the superficial and think, "man this Kottke guy had an easy gig, he doesn't deserve a 6 month break", but if he's feeling similarly to me, I don't begrudge him. Like the Chinese expression says: Only the wearer knows where the shoe pinches.
(Although… 24 years is a hella long time without a break. Sabbaticals traditionally come after 7 years. So no pressure to come back anytime soon Jason.)
This is something I feel every time I think about getting back into blogging. A post wasn't quite the scream into the void it is now. Back then you'd at least get a few views and a comment or two if you wrote something compelling. Sometimes a lot of views and someone you don't even know liking your words enough to share them.[0]
I don't know if it's the context shift or the fact that newsletters are ascendant but drafting a newsletter doesn't feel as useless as drafting something in WordPress. Even with 0 subscribers.
I also no longer feel the need to be validated by the work that I do but really by how I feel and I feel good.
Something about “not feeling the need to be validated by work” sounds appealing and is bubbling in my mind recently, but I’m not sure how that looks day to day.
I'm not surprised by his move to unplug for an extended period of time. A lot of older people I work with (40-50's) are unplugging their social media, and starting to limit a lot of their screen time and their kids screen time.
I feel like a pendulum is starting to swing away from being accessible 24/7 and always feeling like you need to be constantly plugged into everything.
But while I work a lot and have a few struggling fiddle leaf figs myself, I don't feel burnt out. A few years ago I lucked onto a hobby that makes me some money but most importantly gets me away from the desk. I'm guessing he needs the same.
His existence is browsing the web! A few minutes of searching would suggest some options: repot the plant, prune and/or notch it. Or depending on the house, move it outside. Or give it away and start another one or another type of plant. Because as others have suggested, the plant is the perfect parallel - he needs a bigger pot, he should get away and outside. Take the kids away any chance you can get. Organise a family trip with whoever can make it, because sometimes if you wait until everyone's available, you will be waiting for years.
I'm assuming he shares custody of the kids which might tie him down a bit, but other than that, if anyone has the freedom to explore new pursuits and take little energising trips, it's surely a blogger writing about things they find online?
There's no other blog I read as consistently or as enthusiastically. I hope he gets the time out he needs from his sabbatical. I look forward to the next 20 years of reading his work.
Side note: what happened to his social bookmarking site he was working on?
What are your other favorites that might help me fill the gap?
What do you mean by this? I saw the announcement in my RSS reader before seeing it here.
> What are your other favorites that might help me fill the gap?
I actually just purged a lot of my media consumption for "burnout" related reasons of my own, but can second some of the recommendations Jason included at the end of the post like Colossal and Open Culture. He also posted this a couple years back:
https://kottke.org/18/04/blogging-is-most-certainly-not-dead
It is listing towards the light of the window. All trees do it. Give it a 180 deg rotation and maybe it will straighten up. Good luck.
That pot is too small for such a large plant.
frankly nothing "internet" is a novelty anymore
no one needs your edgy take, nonlinear thinking, "challenging ideas"...its all just blah blah blah
the world needs people to build houses, not websites
get used to seeing more old-tyme content creators sign off for good, most of their bits had just been reduced to noise anyway
It’s really hard to imagine getting “burnt out” from this. It sounds exactly how many people actively enjoy spending their free time: surf the internet for fun and take a few minutes sharing a couple cool links with your friends.
Firstly, I believe you underestimate the amount of work Jason does and the amount of stress he is under.
I've read Kottke.org since I was a kid, and it's the only blog I still regularly read. There's a reason it's the only website I've looked at everyday for the majority of my life: consistent excellence. Anecdotally, whenever Jason has a guest writer come on his blog, I can tell before I even read the by-line. It's just not the same quality.
And that doesn't happen for free. I imagine it takes a huge amount of work and thought to successfully curate The Whole Internet into something that people actually want to read for 24 years. Remember that his livelihood depends directly on driving traffic to his website — there's no safety net or wiggle room. This sounds incredibly stressful to me.
Secondly, in another comment you claim that because other people with different jobs might be burnt out from those jobs, it is not reasonable for Jason to feel burnt out from his job, and therefore his sabbatical is unwarranted.
This makes no sense. Anyone can get burnt out from any job, and if they have the privilege to do so (and I do agree with you that it is a privilege), they should take time off. In a similar vein, if someone suffers from depression, that person should seek therapy if they can, regardless of whether someone else has life circumstances that are worse.
It makes no sense to prevent someone from taking time off (or seeking therapy) just because their life isn't as bad as someone else's. Instead, we should advocate for better working conditions (or access to therapy) for those who cannot afford the privilege.
If Jason simply wrote that he's sick of maintaining his blog and wants to try something new, that would be perfectly fine.
>I imagine it takes a huge amount of work and thought to successfully curate The Whole Internet into something that people actually want to read for 24 years.
I disagree. Plenty of prolific Reddit and Hacker News posters do the same thing in their spare time.
>Anecdotally, whenever Jason has a guest writer come on his blog, I can tell before I even read the by-line. It's just not the same quality.
Isn't that because they usually post more long-form original content (e.g. https://kottke.org/tag/Tim%20Carmody) than cool links?
It's also clear that Jason has other things going on in life and wanting to clear your plate and reset is very human and understandable.
Losing motivation for a project and moving over to new things is very different from a burn out.
Yeah you're probably right, though it's so annoying when people can't contextualize the usage of terms like "burn out" -- what's "high stress" or "a longer period?" Isn't that subjective?
> Losing motivation for a project and moving over to new things is very different from a burn out.
Is it though? I googled "burnout" and got "Burnout is a form of exhaustion caused by constantly feeling swamped." If someone says the reason they are taking a break is because they are burned out, who is anyone to say that's not what they're experiencing?
If you've heard of Chinese water torture, it's one little drop at a time over a long period of time -- seems entirely plausible that 24 years of being in non-stop curation mode could make someone feel exhausted and constantly swamped.
It's not the surfing and posting links. It's the knowing if I don't surf and post sufficiently interesting links every day, I can't afford my health insurance. The stakes are much higher in the latter.
is true for literally everyone except the independently wealthy. It is a lot easier to not stress over for someone for whom "the activity itself" is a non-demanding job, than for someone whose job is inherently extremely emotionally or physically draining.
As an extreme example, suppose my parents bestowed on me a trust fund. It affords me a monthly allowance that lets me live an upper middle class lifestyle without having to otherwise work. The only requirement to get this allowance is to have an earnest phone call with my mother for an hour each week. Failure to do so results in the trust being revoked. Saying that I'm "burnt out" from "knowing if I don't call my mom this week, my whole income disappears" would be absurd. The ease of my carefree lifestyle is more than enough to offset the mild stress of having to remember to call my mom on a weekly basis.
The parent comment was, essentially, "Why is doing X stressful for Kottke who does it for work when I do X for fun and don't find it stressful at all?" And the answer is... Kottke does it for work and you do it for fun.
It's on the level of someone saying they're "malnourished" because they had to give up a daily diet of Michelin Star-level restaurant food.
I just get the sense that his interest in it is waning, and he doesn't want to just "check the box" every day. It's his right. Just because some people live in terrible conditions, doesn't mean he can't be sick of his job.
I'm curious, would it have bothered you as much if he'd just said: "I'm sick of this blog and I'm quitting it?" because that's basically what he did, except he promised to come back (I wonder if he'll regret that promise in six months).
>I'm curious, would it have bothered you as much if he'd just said: "I'm sick of this blog and I'm quitting it?" because that's basically what he did, except he promised to come back (I wonder if he'll regret that promise in six months).
Yes, this is exactly how he should have phrased it. "Burnt out" is a very strong term that refers to a state of extreme mental anguish induced by an unreasonable and inescapable level of overwork. It feels insulting and sneeringly privileged coming from someone whose job is to surf the internet for a few hours a day and sometimes post about it.
It is as if someone unironically described themselves as "severely clinically depressed" after their favorite sports team lost a game, or someone in the top 1% sincerely calling themselves "impoverished" after a slight cut to their yearly bonus (or the recent bloodbath in the stock market).
I don't know anything about Jason, so I can't make an informed call on whether I think he is overly exaggerating things by using the term.
I do think there is at least a version of "burnt out" that just means you are really tired, because you have put a lot of effort into something for a long period of time, to the point that you are questioning whether it is worth it to you to continue doing it.
However, yeah, some people probably say "I'm so burnt out on 'X'" because they've spent over a half hour on it, and it still isn't done. That doesn't qualify, in my opinion.
If that's the crux of your objection, we can put this to bed. From Wikipedia:
> According to the World Health Organization (WHO), occupational burnout is a syndrome resulting from chronic work-related stress, with symptoms characterized by "feelings of energy depletion or exhaustion; increased mental distance from one’s job, or feelings of negativism or cynicism related to one's job; and reduced professional efficacy".
So, it's the amount of stress over time, not amount of work per day. He says he's sick of following the news every day to write about it on his blog. I can see how reading the news every day, even when you don't want to, can be stressful. Even if I didn't, the point is that he does.
If the blog poster expected to be happy, or to have riches for example, and neither occurred at the level they expect (especially now 24 years in) burn out occurs.
On the same note suicidal or depressed people can similarly be called privileged, spoiled, or what have you, but that would seriously be tone-deaf.
Wish I had the luxury to tell my boss , hey I'm burnt out, be back in 6 months or so.