Could you please summarize your post? I just see a wall of text with words like McDonalds, Lolita, Christianity etc.
It's a whole art to it, free speech in forums. I want to develop the art form beyond its current state, like treat Hacker News like a forum for essayists, every comment an essay, but I am stuck thinking how.
The crazy thing in my view is despite my comment history containing, and acting as one of the precious few records of, my lobotomy, I actually have done a pretty good job--this is just me talking here, my perception--of not saying stupid shit that will fuck my life up. There are two comments that are favorable of Pinochet, but I consider that excusable because the torture, the lobotomy (the medical thing they did meets both criteria according to the US Federal Codes), can in fact make you think false things, and that is why those two comments were made. But overall, I think holding consistency as the highest fundamental moral value just transforms your bullshit into this strange thing, like let's think of a name for it, maybe not-bullshit, nonbullshit, no that's too long..."truth" yeah that's a good made-up word, a bullshit thing that sometimes looks like the only thing that isn't bullshit, and it's good because the concept of truth is tightly related to broadcasting, consensus, witness, and belief.
Sometimes I can write single sentence paragraphs too.
> Please seek help, it seems that you think people are out to get you
Yeah I should amend those comments, went a little too far there. Although you talk about seeking help like it's going to dawn on me I just might be a little off. No shit, work on your reading comprehension, those walls of text? Top to bottom, left to right. Yeah am in fact a bit off, what did you expect would happen when malpracticed on my brain? You know malpractice on a bone harms the bone and it needs more care later, stomach same thing, like please assure me you're a doctor for you to be giving me medical advice?
You can't just give yourself a smug little pat on the back for telling me to seek help as though that will fix my wretched life, it's not automatic, there's a whole art to actually obtaining psychiatric care that isn't designed to harm you. 60% of psychs are antagonistic, I'd say. And the psych ward? I'm a fish in the water in there, know the protocols, know the law, know the laws that apply and the ones that should but that you just have to let go.
I spend a huge percentage of my income on psychiatric care, and it can't just be any doctor, with a carefully chosen doctor, of whom I demand the absolute best care, highly tailored. It's my highest priority in my budget, you realize, because if my mind is out of commission I'm screwed, whereas if I'm strong in my skull I can solve all my problems singlehandedly?
Dude you think it's a simple matter of calling a hotline? Oh oh, just google the number! The contempt is unbelievable, if you wound up in a psych ward you'd never get out, never get respect from the staff, get drugged with whatever was in the medicine cabinet when you consented the least, never get any insights into working with the system and also plain working the system.
> I doubt anyone actually cares
That would be a dream come true! I got for sure harassed, arguably persecuted, I talked to a lawyer about it at length, like 26 hours ago in a Lider supermarket on Merced in Santiago Centro that accused me of not paying but refused to look at my receipt. 6 guards, insincere apologies, I made them cut the shit real fast. Before that a few weeks ago and in that case told I would be hunted down and gutted like a fish for telling some street urchins their speaker was too loud, for which they fought me in front of 100 witnesses, being righteous brings problems, I have witnesses. Do you want to talk to any of my witnesses, see any of my proof? You don't, you don't. Like hit and run, you want to give advice that makes you look good--to someone--for giving it, but never take responsibility for your words and actions and their consequences. Then you'd get a wall of text.
And about that bitchvictim media you asked about--you answered your own questions.
Honestly I can barely read what I wrote. I can but barely. I really like it but it's not suited for most readers, it's good for my future self but that's it.
The volume of ideas is fine. It's fine to write extensively. But the format is bad, everything's too long. Posts are too long, 1400 characters is an essay, way too long. Then, paragraphs are too long, walls of text are huge. Then, sentences are too long, should be fewer clauses.
So more "reply" button pushes per hour of writing for more shorter posts, more returns for paragraphs, and more periods for sentences.
Maybe more editing too, if I'm going to write something for others maybe proofread.
Because we're talking about psychiatry, which includes lobotomy and roofies, I simply must shoot first and ask questions later. That is how I must react. But at some point I must still get around to the questions, and try to rectify mistakes.
You reacted favorably, and did what the culture we're in told you to do.
I apologize.
EDIT: And you know what? After April 2009, I found no doctor willing to treat me for the lobotomy. They were all afraid of angering my lobotomist. So I had to treat myself, and did so with supplements and prescribed substances. So the organ is OK again. And while I didn't have to learn how to walk again, I evidently need to learn how to talk again. Baby steps.
> You can't just give yourself a smug little pat on the back for telling me to seek help as though that will fix my wretched life, it's not automatic, there's a whole art to actually obtaining psychiatric care that isn't designed to harm you.
> Dude you think it's a simple matter of calling a hotline? Oh oh, just google the number! The contempt is unbelievable, if you wound up in a psych ward you'd never get out, never get respect from the staff, get drugged with whatever was in the medicine cabinet when you consented the least, never get any insights into working with the system and also plain working the system.
You are exactly right. People telling others to simply "seek help" is condescending in a way. They might mean well but really it's just lip service, most who say this don't really care whether someone actually gets help, it's more of a way to simply remain civil, or in the worst case, to virtue signal that they want to help, even if in actuality they don't.
I see this all the time on the internet and real life, it's simply not sincere most of the time.
Whether this is better or worse than before I really can't say.