First of all, you are not disappeared -- just by the mere fact of you being able to post this. Want to give it a go and redeem yourself? Try writing some anti-war stuff in Moscow (you can even join your role-model).
Second, you are not Edward Snowden. And your comparison to him in the latter parts of the article do not do your point any justice. You risk very little by posting this, whereas Mr. Snowden became exiled from his home country by exposing illegal surveillance and is now wanted for treason.
Third, pick better friends and maybe don't work for propaganda outlets? I'm no saint myself, and I understand sometimes you have to put food on the table. But don't claim you're innocent (no snowflake ever feels responsible in avalanche, as the saying goes). Move on, do something better and be remembered for doing good things?