You need to be honest with yourself. It's not going to work at this moment. HN is filled with bias for the success stories, but you never hear about those that don't make it. I have a friend who is brilliant, Berkeley grad and Stanford PhD, who wasted 11 years trying to start his own startup. He gave up a job at Google and beats himself up every day for literally giving up millions, probably well over $10M had he just stayed.

Go get a well paying job, and start a family. Stop chasing the startup dream, luck has a lot to do with it, and you didn't get lucky. But it's okay, there's no shame in that. You gave it your best shot, but there's more to life than making a startup. You can be extremely happy having a well paying job in tech and raising a wonderful family.