Me also, which is why it threw me immensely when I joined a team where they're somewhat dismissive of pairing.

I realized that I'd been using it as a sort of crutch for a while.

It not only motivated me it drew me out of my shell. It made me more willing to reach out to people i needed coz i was already in a "social mindset". It also made it easier to assess and take risks as a pair.

Whereas alone I become somewhat risk averse and asocial.