I love this. This was me in 2017 and following the white rabbit led to a most spectacular year. It really is a birth right, and people chosing ‘no’ are really missing out on a fundamental aspect of being alive.
On another note, I always love psych threads on HN. High quality posts all around.
I feel a bit sad hearing this, I'm a pretty anxious person so I'll probably never experiment. While I love reading about people's experiences I often hear warnings that people like me should stay far far away.
You could always try microdosing, which 1) is safe and 2) over time, provides a lot of the benefits of a single, large dose.