Moral of the story is that you were intrinsically motivated to learn… in which case it doesn’t matter how you learn it as long as you follow that motivation.
Then a decade or so later I encountered matrices in computer graphics and suddenly I found that a lot of that stuff was actually useful and piece by piece it started to make sense to me.
The way that course was taught didn't work at all for me. I wasn't looking for motivation in the sense that I want to use it, but more about what was the motivation for developing any of it in the first place.
https://rady.ucsd.edu/faculty/directory/gneezy/pub/docs/jep_...
The line is somewhat blurry but there's probably a difference between playing a game and doing a job you don't really like because you're paid to do it.