> I will never let myself nor anyone I care about fly on a 737 Max.

I feel the exact same way. Note that they are no longer marketing it as a "Max". You've got to look at the winglets and the engines to be sure.

  > Even if I could be confident in the plane, I cannot forgive nor forget all the people who needlessly died.

Actually, there are arguments for and against being able to be confident in the hardware itself. The engines are in the wrong place, simply. They engineered computer-aided pilot assist systems to compensate for that. I've heard pilots and engineers weigh in on both sides of the debate. But everyone agrees that a plane like that would never be designed from the ground up. It is literally a stack of patches.