I’m not the parent, but I had a moment where I physically felt something “break” in my brain (stress related), and ever since then I haven’t been the same person.
The feeling is hard to articulate, but I no longer connect to my feelings or thoughts in the ways I had been accustomed to.
My new behaviors and patterns are somewhat destructive to the life I was building prior to my “break,” and it’s incredibly maddening and depressing trying to balance “good for new me” and “good for the life old me built and the people he loved.”
It goes way beyond not simply enjoying the things I used to enjoy any more.