The weird thing is, everything I've tried so far has not only had minor effects, but practically no side effects either (some tendency to gain weight that goes away with a small adjustment to my diet, and I sweat a bit more which has actually cleared up my skin).
(They're prescribed for all of the above!)
Anyway, CBD gummies or oil are worth the shot.
I hope you find exactly what you need. You deserve it.
That said, I have a grab-bag of symptoms that isn't entirely typical. On the one hand I don't get any suicidal ideation, on the other depressed episodes seem to feature an actual lowering of IQ. Other than that, the usual lethargy, anhedonia, etc. that most people associate with depression.
At best, antidepressants (at the maximum prescribed dose) make it possible to get up and trudge through the day somehow. Most don't seem to even do that much. A couple I've tried immediately gave me night terrors so I couldn't really try them long enough to see whether there was any therapeutic effect.
Failing that, a KTM 890 Adventure.
My non-traditional background in IT/SWE always seems to dissuade people in the end and I’m passed up for better candidates. 4-8 hours of interviewing for each eventual rejection is so soul crushing.