My son's mom died of cancer last February, and two days later they found tumors in my then girlfriend/now late fiancee. She passed away last month.
I stopped working several months ago and have no immediate desire or need to go back to work.
I'm not sure if it's a blessing or curse to have so much free time to grieve.
Enjoying the downtime with occasional spontaneous bursts of tears.
Edit: thank everyone for the kind words. I put together this 4 minute tribute of our times together to honor her/us. She was beautiful.