You don't have to die of cancer. If you got it, and you're sure it's terminal, there's really not much need to wait, there are ways.

I'm still an alcoholic. I may drink less than before, but it's the only drug that affects GABA receptors that I can reliably get. If doctors won't help me, well, it's the only thing that keeps me sane lol.

I used to be careful with drugs, now I try everything I can get my hands on and note the results. It became sort of a hobby of mine.

Still remember the time I was fading in and out of consciousness from phenylethylamine and alcohol (wack interaction, do not recommend), the absolute despair that 7+ grams of pure GABA puts me into, and the time I passed out and pissed myself on too much Imipramine+L-DOPA+Valerian extract.

Ah, if only I could get the good stuff that works for my actual problems, but apparently prescriptions are not for subhuman citizens like me.

If I die, I die. If I become disabled/impaired, I die. Harder than it sounds, but I'm gonna test the limits.