The Intense World Theory of Autism
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I don't have an autism diagnosis, but many of the things in the article I do have a "formal" diagnosis for:
"...the example of scratchy tags on the back of shirts, which might repeatedly draw the attention of a person with autism, yet be below the threshold where they draw the attention of most neurotypical people."
In my teens I was diagnosed with "Tactile Defensive Disorder" for explaining to a psychiatrist why I always ripped the tags out of the back of my shirts and don't like putting lotion or other stuff on my skin.Then the amalgam of anxiety disorders -- Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder.
Really what it is, is that a lot of things are just sensorily overwhelming. Loud music, crowds of people (sea of moving colors), it's too much for me (unless properly inebriated). I don't know how it doesn't drive over people crazy, it's like your senses are being assaulted.
Have a hard time watching regular TV/movies, I prefer animated things because there is too much detail and movement on the screen at once otherwise and I have a hard time absorbing both the dialogue and what my eyes are seeing.
I like to sit at home quietly. Is anyone else like this?
its simply too much. if I'm ordering coffee or talking to a customer I really don't want that level of visibility into their thoughts and emotional state.
Interesting comment re: TV. I'm in my 40s and have never regularly watched TV but never thought about why. Your description is good. It's just an overwhelming assault on the senses for very little in return
- tags on shirts don't bother me much.
- I'm fine with loud music, especially European power metal, but I tend to keep the volume at 3 instead of going to 11 because I value my hearing.
- I don't like being around lots of people, so I rarely attend concerts.
- The voices of children, especially if they aren't using their indoor voices, pierces my head like a blunt icepick to the point of pain.
- TV/movies/podcasts/audiobooks tend to bore me; I prefer to read and immerse myself in text.
- I have a complexity jones.
It's not really anxiety, it's just that the world wasn't made for guys like me and I don't really belong here. I feel like I'm just doing hard time on planet Earth for a crime I don't remember committing. Must have been pretty fucking heinous, though.
I never made the connection to preferring animated media. Very interesting. Thank you for that insight.