I've analsysed this for sometime and the best (for me) way of dealing with it is to keep track of every thing I do or I like.
"The power of habit" book helped a lot with my ability to control my addictions
I've analsysed this for sometime and the best (for me) way of dealing with it is to keep track of every thing I do or I like.
"The power of habit" book helped a lot with my ability to control my addictions
Weaponizing this is unhealthy. It doesn't end well. The reason normal people can't do X and an addict can is because an addict is making egregious trade-offs.
"I know I'm going to mess up my shoulder for the rest of my life, but I'm going to bench heavy anyway"
"I know I haven't seen my kids in a month, but I'm going to shut myself away and work on my side business anyway"
It's collapsing your entire life into a single, simplistic max/min function. It's a quick path to misery.
In any case, there is some real wisdom in Peter Pan, but it was completely lost on me as a child.
"A human being is a synthesis of the infinite and the finite, of the temporal and the eternal, of freedom and necessity, in short, a synthesis."
Health is balance.
I also have mild OCD. And I’m not depressed, but i get bored very easily and very fast.
The key for me is also habits, diversion, and moderation. I have an easy time forming habits because of OCD so I just have to prune bad ones, easier said than done. I also keep track of how i feel, and just naturally feel bad if i eat too much or sleep late, which seems to subconsciously make me not want to do those things, so i don’t have to use as much willpower.
20+ years later I still workout almost every single day. I think about how easy it could have been to take a far worse path, but exercise has been my savior. To paraphrase Henry Rollins, 225# is always 225# no matter what else is happening in your life. It is the great constant.
feeling bad works a little in reducing various cravings,
but my brain seems to have a way of fading my bad memories somewhat
edit: typo
but I feel like almost anything food/ drink could be a drug (to me), since if I like it, it makes me want to crave it - for many days/ weeks after.
I agree. It's incredible the lengths that people will go to separate drugs and alcohol.
I always like to phrase it like this ...
If you took alcohol in a pill form, are you drinking or taking drugs?
The “haircut” where you pour a mixer into your mouth, someone pours liquor into your mouth, and then you swallow in a way such that the liquor doesn’t touch your mouth or throat is the closest thing to an “alcohol pill” I can think of. Come to think of it, shots plus chasers are somewhat “pill like” too