I was a kid who always would try to break every system I came across, no matter what it was. I disassembled our FiOS fiber box when I was 11 just to see if I could get us onto the 1Gb plan somehow. I bypassed the "free beta over" modal on a major photo retouching program to get myself free $99 license keys when I was 12 (inspect elem ftw). I was just always in this mindset of "how do I get around this" even if there was literally nothing of desire behind it.

So naturally when it came to anti cheats, I spent a lot of time reverse engineering and had the same mindset. I never cheated against others in a way to benefit; sometimes to just troll, sometimes to joke around with friends, and occasionally I would be a dick to others who were being a dick as well. I started developing and contributing to other cheats and talking to other programmers as well. I still have a lot of the contacts, especially the people that sell thousands/$ cheats that get used by top 100 in country players (not pro, but tournament players)...

But I will be honest. It got really painful when I realized cheats that I contributed to were being used against my favorite youtubers. I know it sounds stupid, almost like doublethink, to watch and enjoy famous youtubers who vehemently attack cheaters while cheating myself. But in Tom Scott's words [0], "everyone draws the moral line of what's acceptable just slightly below what they're actually doing". But I've nearly entirely given up with playing the game because I have found far more enriching uses of my time, than doing something that actively harms so many people.

[0]: https://youtu.be/OCLaeBAkFAY?t=280