But, I did make an interactive tutorial here: https://docs.ycombinator.lol/
If you have any questions about it, I'd be happy to answer. This stuff is pure fun mixed with a shot of professionalism.
For what it's worth, as someone with narcolepsy, I relate quite a lot to your chronic pain. (https://twitter.com/theshawwn/status/1392213804684038150) For me, it mostly translated into wandering aimlessly from job to job, since I thought no one would have me. I hope that you find your way -- there's nothing wrong at all with taking it slow and spending years on something that takes others a few months. Everyone is different, and it's all about the fun.