Sounds like you made being high your identity.
To me it’s like coffee (which I drink sparingly as caffeine messes me up worse; biochemistry shrug). I just consume it and go.
I’ve also never had an issue setting aside when I need to. If I want to interview, I can hop off cold turkey, give it 3-4 weeks to burn it out of my fat.
My career went nowhere before I started smoking, tbh. I was a Linux admin for nothing companies that don’t exist anymore; think mom and pop offices 20 years ago.
In the last decade I’ve worked for big tech, startups doing actually cool shit, and now for a really neat security company.
But that could just be the subjective experience side of reality leading to different outcomes for different people and have nothing to do with weed for either of us.