You do not have to be as you have described yourself. You do not have to rely on caffeine, thc, or alcohol. This is the practice of sobriety, which is followed by many. You can learn to be at peace with your own mind. You do not have to have to follow any social media. Many do not and billions could not in the past. Of what you listed, I use only HN, and that only to distract me at work. You do not have to be connected to dopamine goggles from <company>, you can be entertained by your own imagination, by the allure of the world, by the beauty of the people around you.

You do not have to feel that you cannot live without pharmaceuticals. The value of a tetanus shot is obvious, but it can be something you choose, not something which you are burdened to bear as the price of birth. Depressive disorders are wholly a disease of our malignant society. I would encourage you to examine the work of Stephen Ildari, for it has helped me greatly. I encourage you to see what happens to you and your gf when you eat plants instead of processed <product>.

You can be more than a tax cattle, or someone else's paycheck, or the reflection of the vision and will of powerful strangers. You are still very young. Take control of who and what you are.