To this day I don't really like to talk about it because it is easy to blame myself for more and more and I need to focus on the future. One of the things that happens to you when you fail like that after a ten+ year effort is that you sort of lose your identity. By that I mean that I was very well known in my industry, gave seminars to hundreds of people, etc. I went from that to evaporating from the scene for many years. I left the industry and never went back. I shifted into other domains. That identity is gone. In the new context I am nobody. That's a tough shift. Not because I value being somebody, but because losing your professional identity isn't a great thing to having to navigate.
Yes, it is cathartic to some extent. And yet I don't really enjoy talking about it. It still hurts.