Overcoming a Challenging Situation?
The first several months were alright, but not the best. I was having conflicts with the team leader and interpersonal issues with other engineers. Eventually, a tipping point was reached and I was subsequently removed from the team.
In retrospect, I was experiencing severe anxiety and other mental health issues, in addition to Aspergers. My communication and approach were tuned for the FAANG world. Direct, dry, and opinionated. I didn't take any time to readjust, re-calibrate, or transition into a different working and company culture. I suspect that my mental state was hindering my ability to think rationally.
I was in a "survival mode" and wanted to stick to my existing and known working routine.
I'm troubled with the fact that my colleagues were hurt by me. I'm disappointed with myself that I didn't listen to my partner, my colleagues, or the wisdom of the people around me. I'm sad and frustrated with the overall situation. I know I could have done better, and coming face to face with my social challenges is something that I have been avoiding.
I want to learn and improve from this situation. I want to repair the relationships and earn the trust and respect of my colleagues. I want to grow and be a safe, reliable and trusted person to work with.
Does HN have any wisdom or advice for me?