You'll get there, I'm rooting for you. A bit of time, effort and luck, and you'll get there. Focus on the things you can change and not the things you can't.
"Why be happy when you can be interesting" -- Slavoj Žižek
interesting. as someone who's been feeling extremely unhappy lately, i often wonder if most of us don't actually revel in our own misery to a certain extent.
> i often wonder if most of us don't actually revel in our own misery to a certain extent.