The best way I can describe it is that poverty makes you start out life in a giant hole and you're given nothing to help you dig out of that hole to reach the surface where you can then start thriving. I honestly feel that at 54 years old, I'm finally thriving and not merely surviving in this whole of poverty. Yes, it's taken me this long to get here.
I never went to the dentist on a regular basis. It wasn’t until I had an abscessed tooth and was in extreme pain, that my welfare mother took me to a backwoods, rudimentary small town dentist. I remember sitting in the dental chair with the high-pitched whine of the dentist drill and smoke that smelled like burning hair, pouring out of my mouth. It traumatized me. To this day, I still have issues with my mouth and am finally at a point where I can begin getting it taken care of.
I got a job working at the elementary school in 9th grade one summer. I spent the summer scraping gum off of the bottoms of chairs and desks using a container of something that froze the gum so I could scrape it. I also spent long hot summer days crouched over on the black tarmac, painting the foul lines with yellow paint. I was hunched for so long that I developed back problems and of course, couldn’t afford to get it taken care of. I’ve had back problems ever since and it wasn’t until I was in my 40s that I could finally afford to see a Chiropractor and find some relief. And to top it all off, the State of California cut my moms welfare off because I managed to earn $2000 that summer. Guess how much I ended up getting to spend on new school clothes? Only about $200 from what I can remember.
It wasn’t until the past few years that I stopped looking at the price of things I was putting in my cart and making a mental calculation of the total cost of the shopping cart EVERY TIME I went shopping. I no longer do this and get whatever I want from the store.
I developed a weird sense of wanting to have choices. My wife couldn’t understand why I would open three different tubes of toothpaste until she finally realized what it was I was doing. I never had so many choices and I loved it.
I could go on and on but I won't. I think it's pretty easy from here to extrapolate just what poverty did to my productivity overall.