If you are encountering that sentiment I would encourage a big step back to determine if there is a different approach you can take.
Happy to discuss if you want to post details.
I do not know what to do if I do not get a PhD. This pandemic truly screwed me over.
Long-term Depression + a complete inability to focus on anything for more than about 3 minutes at a time have made this difficult.
Been thinking about politics or drug trafficking as better options than sysadminning.
Just don't get enough time to Leetcode -> I'm not confident enough to apply -> stuck in the same frustrating job -> Makes me want to quit
Just can't seem to be able to break the cycle.