Paxil is an SSRI. They are ineffective in treating what is wrong with me. They also make me feel suicidal. I can't take them. The doctors who recommended SSRI in my youth have no fucking idea what is wrong with me.

The only thing I've even seen that addresses my issue is benzos but they are extremely dangerous.

I was told by multiple psychiatrists that I should be on a heavy dose of benzos for life but I don't take them because I think they are too dangerous.

A dose of benzos that is enough to knock a normal person on the floor passed out just makes me feel normal.