> cannot accept a system that requires blind belief or that has some obvious logical flaws.

There's a lot of religions out there. Many of them are bunk, and many are not much better than the local chess club. But there are some potent practices out there, it's not all about "blind belief". This crisis you describe is precisely the "religious" impulse (or whatever you want to call it). For some people they end up climbing mountains and that does it for them. It's all the same impulse, is what I am trying to say. And you don't have to believe in some kind of santa clause god to get the juice. Good luck!