I have thought about whether this is my body telling me something. That’s why, as I put in my large comment, I have an appointment with my primary care next week. I have cut out news about two months ago, but I get triggered by a lot of different things: video games, books I’m reading, conversations with people I like, etc. The biggest thing though: it all feels like lying to myself that it will be ok and knowing that it won’t. It will happen and I don’t want it to.