I used to be like you but I started to (wo)man up and read the emacs tutorial with the fantastic doom-emacs and now I can get myself around with Emacs and do OK with it!
(on a second thought I do miss n-pp)
(on a second thought I do miss n-pp)
If I could run a swiftUI style np++ with the buttons in exactly the same places & exact feature parity it'd be a dream.