> I'd take a 2 hour commute each way

I used to have a job like this. I dreaded waking up each day.

I would consider losing this job a blessing in disguise. I know that doesn't help right now but remember that things can always get better.

Some things that would make an immediate impact:

- spend more time outside (go for walks)

- exercise

- socialise (it's hard right now, but speaking to a person IRL is a vital part to what makes us human)

- write things down

- tidy up your room/house

- get into a routine incorporating all of the above

If you need to chat, you can email me.