You can reach out to a suicide prevention hotline at (800) 273-8255. I've called multiple times before and they have gotten me through rough patches.
Please don’t. You are underestimating the likelihood that things can and will turnaround for the better.
I don’t know your situation and I certainly don’t think your situation is the same as mine, but I had suicidal thoughts until this past January. I didn’t have hope. I thought the way I was was the way I would always be. I thought most of the people in my life would better off freed from the burden of me. But I found relief that I thought I’d never feel. I don’t know if you will find relief, but I have hope for you. I didn’t have anyone to talk to and that was the hardest part; feeling alone, so I want you to know I’d love to talk. Please reach out. We can text, email, phone, zoom–if there is anything you are comfortable with know that I am here and I WANT to talk with you. You don’t have to, but you can.
I get that, feel free to e-mail me @ jonathanlouiswerber@gmail.com if you need someone to talk to
I came close in 2017 but didn't. I checked myself into a behavioral unit instead. Now my life is 10,000 times better.
Hope that is a joke, we all have down times, remember the people you love and those love you. Hang in there, things will be better.
It’s ok to have those feelings, I think many do but they will not last forever friend. Peace and love is all around you <3