I'm in the same boat as you. Grew up on Valve games, and they even inspired me to become a game developer. I was a mobile game dev at my last job, and it really pained me to see firsthand how much that company was in a stranglehold to develop more and more content to put into the lootboxes instead of improving and adding to the gameplay itself. Not to mention new ways to give out that content. Its a viscious cycle that never ends. I feel lucky to have been laid off now that I look back at it a few months later. I'm never going back to game dev again after that experience. That isn't the only reason but it's a big one.