> I'm not interested in companies that do alternatives to coding interviews as they generally pay significantly worse than what I'm expecting, but whenever I do Leetcode problems I frequently dive into the depths of depression and self-harm

Maybe getting a lower salary is very well worth it if it lets you avoid the self harm and depression. SE salaries in general are pretty good so even if you’re in the lower end of the scale it’s decent. Not everyone can earn 300k total comp by working for the usual suspects, earning 80–100k if you don’t live in overpriced cities/countires is still a pretty good life.