Ask HN: Life advice - failure with college? Aspiring CS Maj.
This is a very touchy subject for me - as I have not talked about this with anyone. The best place to start is the beginning I guess. I would think that the first part is what most of the HN community can share as a common quality.
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Ever since I had a computer in my hands (10-11 yrs) I have tinkered around with everything I could. Starting with simple things like HTML - basic copying and editing to make stuff portray the information I wanted - even though it was very bland. The next hurtle for me was the arrival of cable internet - being able to not wait 30 minutes to download a 2 mb file seemed unreal. Getting the router set up for all the computers and setting up sharing and local games of quake III arena with my dad seemed like such a daunting task until completed.
Then 16 came and the ability to drive - and make my own money and with what I wanted was amazing. But what would I do with this little stream of income? I ended up renting a game server from a friend who worked at IBM. At the time I had no idea how to work linux (thank God he set aside time to help me) - or edit server game files - or even what a cvar was. So here I was a 16 year old kid running Wolf: Enemy Territory servers for a gaming community - that brought in its own questions - how to get files onto the server for people to download, etc. Then came along Counter-strike: Source and I picked up another linux box - mind you the cost of this box along was ~$100 a month which was pretty much half of what I made in a month. And I went on to create a site that accompanied the server - and now a forum. Editing that forum created so much headache. MySQL? Php? What is this stuff. And starting out the school year I took the first computer programming class available ever at the school - VB.net it seemed so fun to be able to make something from 'scratch' and make it to what you told it to! Even if it wasn't what I wanted.
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Then comes college at 18 - What to major in? Well my first thought is Comp Sci - after my experience the last 5-6 years I thought I would be a shoe in. The first CS class I took was with Java. What is this? There is an actual meaning beind all this programming? Syntax vs. Semantics, Black Box vs. White box, Object Oriented programming - retaking a same modular element and using it else where? I ended up with a D in the class, due to my programming, and changed my major. The decision I regret most so far. Ended up changing to accounting to finish the 2nd term.
Now here I am 4 years of college later struggling to attempt to like accounting - management - all that fuzzy goodness that comes from Business just to get a degree and move on. Every business course I took - I would actively attend class the first 5-6 weeks up to the first exam with a solid 'A' then I would disappear until the next test. In the meantime I would continue playing around with aspects of the computer - finally installing linux myself as an O/S and understanding how items worked. Setting up my own computers with seperate parts Many teachers found this irritating and would drop my grade to a C or even a D just from not coming to class - even though I still read and understood all information that the course was supposed to teach. And I want to go back and start over as Comp Sci major - even if it means 4 more years of college. It almost seems at this point it is better to apply to a new University and not transfer credits and start fresh. Up to this point I have no student loans - or debt - and I do not claim financial aid.
I really do want a career with computers - and not helping people with IT support, not doing peoples taxes, or making sure the zen of accounting is upheld with debits and credits. I want to touch, feel, breathe computers. I understand this is a long post - and many will not read let alone post but I would like your feedback - even if it is a smack on the back of my head.