I feel you - have felt something similar before. It helps me to deal with a thing like this by understanding what I am going through via someone else's words. Preferably some kind of an expert.

There is a book called Paradox of Choice[0] on this topic. Author has a couple of videos about the book as well [1].

0 - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Paradox_of_Choice 1 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iy8R5TZNV1A