I lost my job because of COVID19

That really sucks, especially given the emotional-geographical significance of Germany to the author. Wow.

One observation: He's doing a fantastic job being vulnerable and authentic in a very tight spot. Someone who has cultivated this gift is going to go far in life in general, just IMO. Those who can't let themselves express what the author expresses here may have to spend a lot more time spinning their wheels when bad news hits.

Here's wishing the best to him, and much gratitude for providing an impressive example of processing a difficult outcome.