Ventilation is not a very cruel intervention, especially since you will almost certainly be sedated. I've been intubated a few times, and I'd much rather take this than for example CPR which regularly breaks ribs.
We should be upfront about the odds of a full recovery and allow room for thoughtful discussion around patients’ wishes. The frenzied environment of ICUs during a pandemic isn’t conducive to this, so we need to be deliberate and talk about it as a country. The “job one is saving lives” rhetoric may not be best for patients and their families.
I’m not sure if that experience is caused by the ventilation, or by the disease and misattributed. In any case, I’ve decided not to get infected by this bug. And if I fail at that, I might even consider a living will excluding ventilation.
The first time they put some kind of special tube in under general. When I came to 3 days later there was no ventilator, and the end of the tube was in my throat. It felt like a rectangular block. They extubated me while I was awake and immediately put me on high flow oxygen. They would've intubated me on the spot if I couldn't breathe. Never felt a gagging sensation in this instance.