I experience a lot of what OP describes but obviously am not OP. It's tough though, who wants to take the anti-anxiety medication that we don't really understand every day for the rest of their life? Just for you to eventually not need it? Why would I all of a sudden not need it? Doesn't even make sense.

My doctor always tries to get me to take it but it just seems like a bandaid. Granted, I don't claim to be able to fix it myself either, but the last thing I want to do is mess with my brain chemistry more, especially since I'm starkly aware of the arrogance of humanity (i.e. nobody really knows what is actually going on).

EDIT: I feel like baby(user comment below) might be on to something. I constantly am in fear of something bad happening and stress about that far more than I stress about things that have already happened. But I do experience both.