However it isn't until older age I finally been able to force my exert executive control to focus. It has taken a lot of practice and challenging myself and it wasn't until the age of 26 I finally been able to go to college. I keep challenging myself and I feel it get easier and easier every year.
So now I start to question the inability part. Or if it's something you can actually practice and get over.
There are many books on the subject of good exercises, and some therapists that specialise in helping adhd people.
Honestly, I think therapy had the least effect except realization what was wrong. Drugs I think helped the most.. lately it feels like they're not as good though, or I feel like I'm in a funk. I don't know if that's just life or being overworked or just I need a dose change. Maybe if I cut it cold turkey a week, then get back on it'd reboot or something.
TLDR: I just feel I'm getting off track a lot more lately than I was the previous 14 months. Not sure what I should do, maybe go back to therapy? Maybe focus more on mindfulness/stoicism? Up my dose of Vyvanse? Go back to the gym? All the above?
My understanding is that tolerance is essentially inevitable when you're taking stimulants. I've made a point of checking in with a psychiatrist on a monthly basis so they can help me measure it semi-objectively and adjust if necessary. When resistance does start to develop, a psychiatrist will also have plenty of options for managing it; for example, I think that some people rotate between amphetamine salts, methylphenidate, and other stimulants over the course of several years. They'll also be able to help you figure out which other courses of action would be most helpful, figuring out what issues are actually causing you the most problems and how to address those effectively and so on.
TL;DR There are specialists for "I think my medication isn't working any more" and I'd strongly recommend talking to one, both for this specific problem and on an ongoing basis so you're not forced to try to observe your head from the inside.
i also tried cold turkey for near a month in the hope it would lower my tolerance but sadly no such luck, it did however give me some spare meds with which to try the higher dose
This has nothing to do with ADHD.
> i would often under perform on the easier parts and over perform on the harder parts
It is very common that people with ADHD perform better on harder things and will have a problem focusing on simpler (and thus boring) problems.
it literally does have to do with it because it was part of the results of being tested for adhd. i had mentioned the iq thing because i meant to elaborate. it was explained to me that the testing is designed to be independent of iq. however, i am a little suspicious of that fact.
when i say performed well above average i meant that i fell statistically well away from results that point to adhd.