Thanks for taking time... I live in south-eastern Europe. Gambling/betting here is rampant. I feel like I’m contributing to the problem, but can’t seem to find the way out.
And you've been like that for 13 years! Even slaves in the Bible were released after 7 years.
No wonder you're miserable. No one can do something they hate for that long without having their soul crushed.
Sorry to the people here, but I don't think meditation/diet/exercise will fix this problem.
What makes me even more anxious is the life my kids are going to have. How do I teach them to avoid the slavery when even I’m not able to break free.