Ask HN: I'm 23 and already feeling stuck in life
The following realizations have placed me in an emotional spiral.
1. My job is not a good fit for me. Been working here as a software engineer for 3 years and 90% of the time, I'm bored and uninspired. Part of the reason is that I prefer coding stuff for people and not for businesses. I think that if I start working for non-profits or B2C companies it might solve this issue.
2. I love making an impact and helping others, and I'm not doing that in any capacity. Again, my job involves business software, completely boring to me. And volunteering opportunities in my areas of interests (voter rights, race relations, modernization of civic government technology) seem more challenging to come by.
3. I don't understand passions. For awhile, I've been running a blog simply cause it got me extra money but not because I actually liked it. I recently decided to finally stop it and haven't found anything to fill the void. I got sucked into all the entrepreneur porn and turned every hobby and side project into something that'll make money. Well now all of that has back fired cause I'm left with nothing I truly want to do. Even thinking of doing a side project will leave me uncomfortable if I'm not monetizing it.
4. I just want to relax. I'm jealous of those people who are perfectly content with the daily routine of life. Why do I feel like I need to change something? Do something big? Build something to change society? Why can't I just live the typical life and accept that as success?