If I may be so bold as to inquire, what was your path to stop drinking? Do you find you replaced it with another coping mechanism?
excercise - and for me it was more anxiety+smoking but less anxiety led to less drinking too(which I did not recognize as a problem at the time)
I consciously used it as a replacement: when I was stressed and need of a cigarette, I told myself that I actually feel the miss of a good run - and for me running really helped somewhat, so it was enough to start a positive feedback loop. It is also good that both drinking and smoking makes excercising harder, which I tried to (and many times could) use as a fact against them ("if i now drink i wont be able to wake up early enough to go for a run", "if i smoke it will much harder to breath")
And another internet wisdom cliché ;) regarding anxiety: stop drinking coffee (tea...)...
Always was a high performer, but didn't feel satisfied at other companies. I felt I was worth much more than what I was getting paid. I needed the validation and at least the perception of being with the best. I kept pushing my application since it felt daunting and I had failed Google once. I also made up excuses why a big tech company isn't worth it anyway, and that I shouldn't have to go through whiteboarding. But I'm much, much happier now. Glad I gave it a shot.
Amazon does not have the same technical hurdle as the others.
It has basically nothing to do with: revenues, profits, employees, products, technology.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Facebook,_Apple,_Amazon,_Netfl...
The riddles, and the whiteboards, are why I turn down all big 4 recruiter emails.