I learned I do have a case of mild autism (thanks to someone here posting a relevant link) and maybe ADHD-ish.

While this isn't a great news in itself, I'm grateful that I've been able to benchmark my oddness. Now that I know, it's easier for me to be more self aware and prevent my weird half to do stupid things.

I still trip and fall, and probably will keep doing that forever, but I'me better at falling without hurting myself too much. Sometimes it does drive me to a light paranoia but still working on the tuning of the feedback loop.

I haven't fully digested this yet, a bit tough to swallow at nearly 30 yo but hey that's life.

Also, as a result, I don't fit too well into corporate environments and therefore, for the sake of my own baseline happiness, should keep them at bay.