I now know what true loss feels like. Lost my grandmother (who raised me and was a mother to me) about six months ago. Things have felt weird ever since, but I'm handling it better than I expected. It might be a different story once I feel comfortable starting to go through her things (I lived with and helped take care of her). I've gotten closer to some other family members since.

I realized that I can handle more than I thought, even though it is a pain I haven't felt before. Just trying to make the best of every day since then and keep moving forward.