It's hard to quantify just how scary losing that connection to reality is.
I need to go have a cup of tea. Looking at that has really shaken me.
It's hard to quantify just how scary losing that connection to reality is.
I need to go have a cup of tea. Looking at that has really shaken me.
For me it's more like a moving shade that makes it impossible to see what's behind it rather than not being able to recognize it. Do you have some detail on what you think it's the brain shutting down rather than an effect on the eyes themselves?
>For me it's more like a moving shade that makes it impossible to see what's behind it rather than not being able to recognize it.
Are you aware of the shade or does it behave like your blind spot? Because I've had a few instances in my life where it felt like my blind spot took up a much larger portion of my vision. I've also had the shaking then suddenly starting to profusely sweat that goes away when I eat something.
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The second time happened at work and a co-worker brought me to the hospital. Turned out I was having a migraine attack with aura.
The third time happened at work again. I took an aspirin and took it easy for about an hour. My project manager asked me to go home, but that felt more troublesome to me than just sitting it out.
starts as a small spot right in the "centre of vision". then it grows until I can't see anything at all.
Then vision comes back and is replaced by a headache so bad, even the tiniest movement hurts like a knife cut.
Then I sleep between 4 and 12 hours. The day after I'm something like hung over and the day after that it's like nothing happened.
Luckily, I don't get it often any more :-) But it's hard to explain to other people when it happens.
the good thing about the aura is I get a warning what's about to come, usually it means I can get home before it breaks out.
I can only remember once when the headache broke out before I got home and I started sobbing like a baby on the bus. An old lady worriedly asked me if I needed help and I don't really remember how I got home.
I'm bad about drinking water
Mountaineering is strenuous and all-day enough that you drink water all day, and hyponatremia is a serious concern from drinking straight water for some people, like me. So what I normally do is mix up some Nuun and drink that every few hours. If I get in a bad way and run completely out of water. then I will mix up a liter of ORS and down that. But that's an emergency kind of thing for me because one of the side-effects I've noticed is that ORS will make you thirsty sometimes.
As to it being brain rather than eyes - I had a seizure once I was in hospital (I’m not epileptic or anything of the sort), and I was unable to assemble any thoughts much beyond unbelievable thirst - although my eyes were also affected - blurred and double vision.
My K levels were about 1.5 - imminent death zone. Heart kept stopping and starting. Thank Cthulhu for Hartmann’s solution.
I also greatly lost faith in the medical establishment - they failed to diagnose me, and carried out an unnecessary surgery which made matters worse.
I spent years excluding things from my lifestyle and diet to figure out what was making me ill to no avail.
I finally left my business, as I was getting to the point that I was in a perpetual cycle of being ill and frantically catching up, which was immensely stressful over the last five years or so of my tenure there, and about six months later, the vomiting stopped. It’s now been years.
I never took chronic stress seriously - now I do. It nearly killed me.
I'd see my vision fade to yellow from the outside in. At 12 I had every damned test done by an ophthalmologist, only to come up empty. Much later, I had blood drawn for a test and when I stood after the same thing happened, but worse, and from everyone else's pov I fainted (I could hear and think, but not see or move). That's when I realized the issue was sudden blood pressure drops.
Sometimes this was accompanied by sugar lows, sometimes not.
Mind you, I never saw anything like the picture we're discussing here.
I find it very curious how much these neural-net-driven visualizations map onto human neurological experiences - for example, deep dream resembling an acid trip. That makes me feel like, at least on a cursory level, that neural nets are a step in the right direction to meeting "human intelligence".
I have had my episode of panic attack and just looking at that picture made me feel some of those bad feelings again. Really weird.