The sci-fi fan inside me badly wants this to be an alien encounter. I am holding on to life just so that I get to witness humanity's first encounter with extra terrestrial intelligence. But that's probably unlikely.
I'm not seeing the usual web indications that this is sarcasm or irony, so I wanna say that if you're really just "holding on to life" for whatever single reason, aliens or not, there's good help out there if you want it. You're loved and needed. Be well dude/dudette.
Thanks for your concern. It was not actually sarcasm but exaggeration to express my excitement.