I just can't get my head around 'numbers'. I can't seem to really visualise them or understand what they are. I know this sounds weird. With language or abstract things like 'problems' I can almost see them in my head. I can analyse a problem and all it's flows of cause and effect in a visual way. That's literally what happens in my head.
But with numbers I can't understand them at a basic level. Like - what are they? How do I visualise them?
When it comes to geometry it's almost like it's the 'language' of my brain, how I think, in terms of shape and form and translation and dimension.
I'll give you an example. I learnt Pythagoras theorem aged about 13 or something. But didn't truly understand it until I was about 20 something when I saw a diagram showing graphically the squares of the sides like this[0].
I really need to start at the absolute beginning, like build of a whole foundation of what maths is based on geometry. Does that even exist?
This might not be possible, but if I can even get started it would be great.
[0] https://mysteriesexplored.files.wordpress.com/2011/08/pythag...