My New Vagina Won't Make Me Happy

“The art of medicine consists of amusing the patient while nature cures the disease.”

Does modern medicine really have gender transformation figured out?

When I think of medicine, i think of a scale.

Vaccinations work, we’re good at mending broken bones, appendix surgery saves lives but is iffy, but teeth are beyond our ability to save.

Is transgender surgery and lifetime hormone replacement on the safer side of that spectrum?

As a transgender person I mostly agree with this article. Since starting Hormone Replacement Therapy I did have major improvements in life. I started dating, I started making friends, I felt emotions, I cried, my skin was soft and my face was with cute pink cheeks, my body hair almost entirely stopped growing; I felt like I was heading in the right direction, felt a sense of some comfort, and it relieved a lot of symptoms for me. I was being called 'she', 'miss', 'ma'am' and it made me happy and greatly improved my quality of life. I'm not sure how this couldn't be considered treatment, or even compared to a therapist handing a suicidal patient a razor to just end it now. While it may not work for everyone, it does work for some. We give anti-depressants to people which have the side effect of possibly creating more suicidal thoughts and not working on most people, but that's perfectly fine? Hormones are not a death causing drug.

I'm now off of them due to not being able to afford my health insurance deductible and I feel like an absolute mess of a human being again. I feel the dysphoria. The only emotions I feel now are anger and crippling depression. I criticize everything about me and feel like I'm falling down a hole again. I feel like my life is over again.

Edit: Why the downvotes? D: